Dear Tyler;

Well, my Handsome Man, this will be the first year we will enter together. You have been such a blessing to me, I am one very lucky mummy to have you as my son. I know at first I was unsure of the whole situation, but now I couldn't be more grateful for your existence. Fate doesn't throw you things you can't handle, so I knew you were here as a blessing rather than a curse, and I was so right. You are an amazing little boy, you are always smiling and laughing, always pleasant. You can see how much love you have for your family, especially your sister, and even strangers, just by the look in your eyes. I can tell you are going to be an amazing man/son. A lot of 2012 has been about you; we found out we were expecting you, we found out you were a boy, you arrived, you had your first Christmas, and now you will be celebrating your first New Year. It's mad how much can happen in a year, and even nuttier to think that at the beginning of this year you were nothing but a bunch of cells slowly forming and growing, and now look at you. You are an actual person with his own cheeky personality. I am in awe of you. You, along with your sister, are the light of my life. You are the reason for me to make 2013 the best year yet. I am going to try my damn hardest, and I am going to do it for you. You deserve the best. you deserve my all, and that is what I am going to give. 2013 will bring your first birthday, and I am looking forward to it. It will be the first year we will have spent together right from January to December. You have only been here for 3.5 months, and they have been a hard 3.5 months, but definitely rewarding. It has all been worth it. In just fifteen weeks my family has been completed, my life has changed even more than it had before, and I have realised a hell of a lot. All thanks to you. I am writing this blog as I watch you and your sister in the living room. Your sister is playing happily in front of you and you are sitting in your bouncer gurgling and smiling at her. Love oozes from you, baby boy. Already I am proud. As I said to Lilia, when you become a teen you will probably find me embarrassing and irritating, wanting little to do with me, but that's okay. I get it. A few years of distance is totally worth it, you will always be a mummy's boy at heart. You have such a pure soul, with so much love to give, and I am proud to call you my own. So Happy New Year gorgeous, let's make this one ours.

I love you. Forever and always,

Your Mummy xxx

Dear Lilia;

Happy New Year my beautiful little girl. This has been the first year we have spent together all the way through, and it will be our second New Year to celebrate together. I am writing this as a thank you, for being in my life. I don't know where I would be without you. Thank you for being such an amazing daughter, a good girl, and an even better big sister. You are honestly one of the greatest human beings on this earth, and you are all mine. I am looking forward to 2013, where we can all be together as a complete family, and I am also looking forward to all the other new years to come. Even though you will be in bed by the time we enter the next year, I am glad for you to be here with me to go into it. When you are older I understand that you will be living your own life, that you will want to go out and celebrate it with friends or boyfriends rather than with your mother, so I will make the most of now. When you hit the stage of not wanting much to do with me I will take it on the chin, because I know that eventually the day will come when you will want to spend time with me again. When you will fully appreciate me for being your mother, when you will realise all that I have done for you. I know that you won't until you become a mother yourself, so until then I will just wait patiently. Words cannot describe how grateful I am to have you in my life. I started writing this letter with full intention to tell you how wonderful you are and how much I love you, but I simply cannot put it into words. I will tell you every day, remind you every night, and you will always know that even if the whole world walks out on you.. Your mummy will always be right here. I grew you in my tummy from a microscopic egg into an actual person. A teeny 7lb 11.5oz baby. I am so damn proud that I did that. 2013 is going to be such an amazing year for us beautiful, I promise you that not only as your mother but as your best friend too. I am going to do my very best to make sure that the year that begins tomorrow will be a year that you deserve, and you deserve the best. Sure, there are going to be some tough times in the year to come, but just one look at your gorgeous, smiley, face and I know that it'll all be worth it. The biggest ups I will have in 2013 will come from you and your brother. One of the biggest events in 2012 we shared was your first ever birthday. I wish I could have made it more special for you but nevermind, there is always your second, third, fourth, fifth, and so on.. 2012 also brought you your first easter. Not only that, but it was the year you became a big sister. And a brilliant one you are. I am so excited to see the new year in with you (in bed, but still, ha ha) and to make it our best year yet. Good things are gonna happen baby, I promise!

I love you. Forever and always,

Your Mummy xxx

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Merry Christmas and a happy new year to all my wonderful readers :) Hope your holidays have been/will continue to be as good as mine have been :)