Parenting class :)

I'm going to a parenting class at 2pm with James. It teaches breathing techniques whilst in labour, how to change nappies, how to bath a baby, etc. I'm quite excited. Someone I know is going to be there because she's pregnant too, two weeks behind me with a little girl :), so it'll be nice for us to catch up and I think it's great that someone I actually know will be there. She was in the same year at school with me but she's a little younger, so I won't be the only young mother there which is awesome.
I'll be sure to update you all on the class whenever I get a chance, I've been really busy this past week :| I also want to do another letter to Lilia, but I've been so busy I just haven't had the time to sit down and go through what's changed. I'm 32 weeks now, so I'll be sure to update before I hit the 33 week mark next Friday! I also need to take a bump picture to add to the update so that may make it take a little longer.
STILL CRAVING CLEANING STUFF. Oh my, sniffing flash fresh lemons cleaner and cif bathroom cleaner and the washing up liquid we have.. It's just amazing. Ha !

So yeah. Update & how my parenting class went will be up shortly! :)

Rant of the month:- 'Teen mothers are sluts'.

So I came across a forum on a website about fashion, and it was a photo of a little boy (around three or four) sporting an outfit that a young girl had designed for him. The girl openly said that the boy was her son, and that she designs most of her clothes for him.
Instead of people commenting on how good the outfit was, or how cute the boy is, everyone started judging her. It really annoyed me. The things they were saying just made no sense at all, and were completely rude.

One girl said that the young mum must be a slut because she has a child. The girl is nineteen now, she had her son at sixteen.. Apparently that means that she's easy and went around having sexy with any guy she could find..... WHAT? How is any of this aspect true? She has a son, yes. But so what? Loads of people have sex at a young age, and the age seems to be getting younger and younger.. Just because there's evidence that she had sex, that doesn't mean she's a slut. I'm pretty sure the girl who called her a slut has had sex before too. And how does having a baby make someone easy? I don't understand how people can link all this crap to having a child. So all the thirty year olds who have children are easy too, and slept with anyone? I don't think so. Ugh!
Another said it was disgusting that the girl had a child, and she 'felt really sorry for her and the baby's dad as well as the poor child.. if they know who the dad is'. How sick. I'm sorry but that's so offensive! Assuming someone doesn't know who their baby daddy is just because they're younger than others is SO horrible! And why feel sorry for them? Because they're young? The girl replied 'I wouldn't feel sorry for me or the baby's father if I were you. We're the happiest we've ever been and Logan was actually planned. The dad and I have been together since we were twelve, and Logan is not a 'poor child'. He has a family that love him.' I commented saying good on you girl! I can't believe someone could be so rude like that. Especially assuming that the baby was unplanned.
Which brings me to my next point.. Why does everyone assume that young people with babies made a big mistake and didn't use protection, etc. They assume that each baby was unplanned. Why? Age doesn't make a difference to how good a parent you are going to be, and if someone wants to be a parent then they can be! I know that my daughter was unplanned, but some people plan their children. It happens. I hate it when people assume that teens are just careless, etc, and never consider the fact that it wasn't a mistake at all getting pregnant. Ugh!


Okay, rant over. I feel a bit better now ha ha! I ranted about this to James last night. Only it wasn't as censored as this version ;)

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter to those who celebrate it! I think it's a bit selfish that we all see Easter as a day we have chocolate eggs rather than what it's actually for, the resurrection of Jesus. I personally don't celebrate easter. I do get eggs, but I still find it a bit disrespectful to peoples' religion that that's all people think about on Easter Sunday. Ha ha. Anyway, rant over.. HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!

Beautiful day!

It's such a gorgeous day today. The weather has been absolutely stunning! I woke up feeling terrible; being pregnant in this heat isn't all it's cracked up to be! I felt dehydrated, overheated, and like I was going to faint. So I put a bottle of water in the freezer and lay on the sofa with a cool cloth on my head. After breakfast I was feeling okay so I got my cold water from the freezer and sat outside. James' gran gave him a sun lounger which he has never used, so I got it out and relaxed in the garden. I'm hoping to catch a tan if the weather keeps up! I took some photos of my garden in this lovely weather and the beautifully blue sky.. (I like photography, it's something you'll notice lol) And when I came inside to get the cable to upload my photos and update my blog, I found this:

James had done the dishes! It's the first time he's done something around the house since I moved in! And I didn't even ask! I'm definately going to have to treat him to a takeaway or something tonight! I was so shocked!

Ultrasounds.

I thought I'd share my scan photos with you. I had 3 scan pictures for each time, and they're the only two scans I'm getting. Here's the best pictures from each scan and what happened (in case you are not a mother, or it's different where you come from)

11 weeks & 5 days.

I had this scan a day earlier than when I was meant to have it, because I was in hospital with dehydration. I had to have the scan as soon as I had enough strength to walk again just to make sure that the baby was okay and that there was only one in there! The picture wasn't very clear for this scan because my bladder wasn't full enough due to the dehydration. The ultrasound took around 5-10 minutes, the woman checked that things were developed and how big the baby was, etc. She told me that my due date was 24th June, and that I was 11 weeks and 5 days along. This was annoying, because we thought I was due 12th June and that the morning sickness should be stopping now - but we got told that the morning sickness could still last around 2 weeks! Majour bummer. And it's two weeks longer til we meet our baby, not fun! James didn't come to this scan because I was in hospital and he was in work, plus we didn't know when we'd be having the scan so I couldn't just expect him to drop everything. But my mother came to the scan and stayed with me almost all the time from when I was admitted into hospital in the morning until 9pm when visiting time ends. My mother's comment in the scan was "oh, it looks like ET!" Thanks mum. My dad turned up at half past 9 and managed to sweet talk the nurses into letting him stay for a bit. He only stayed til around 10 but he brought me starbursts and revels and flavoured water (I hate plain water unless its bottled, and tap water was all I was given in hospital). He gave me a lecture on how I should drink loads to prevent dehydration again and was adiment that it was my fault and not the morning sickness! But he did say he was proud of me for having the drip - I'm absolutely petrified of needles because of something that happened when I was a baby. I don't remember it but apparently I don't need to remember it for it to cause the fear, so whatever ha. He said the baby looks big in the scan :) When I got home the next afternoon and showed people, they said "oh, it's a boy then?!" I don't know how they thought it was a boy, but almost everyone did! Even James and I did. The only person who thought it was a girl was my mother ha ha :) James had a copy of the three scan pictures and he kept them in his wallet :) They're still in there now, he just doesn't use his wallet anymore, ha. We had one picture for free because it's our first scan, then we had to pay £3 each for the other two pictures :)

19 weeks & 5 days

This one lasted for a long time. My mum and James came with me. The woman told us that the baby was lying right across my belly button, and she checked that everything was developed. She asked if we wanted to know the gender, and we said yes. She said she'd tell us at the end of the scan. When she was doing her checks, me and my mother saw that the baby was a girl. I didn't realise what I saw because I've never been to an ultrasound before, but my mother smiled and looked straight at me. James didn't notice it, he was just engrossed in the screen. All the checks took around half an hour, but the woman couldn't check her heart because she was refusing to move into a better position. So we got told to go for a walk or have something to eat (it was around lunch time) and then come back. Before we left she told us that she thinks it's a girl. We went to the cafe in the hospital and had some lunch and told everyone that we're having a girl. Then we went back into the scan area and waited until the woman was free to check the baby's heart. She still wasn't in the right position, but she moved when we shook my stomach this time. As soon as the woman put the stick thing (I have no idea what it's called) onto my stomach and we could see her again, she started trying to punch it away. Ha ha ha! The woman checked her heart and we were told that everything is normal :) James then went home to tell his family that it's a girl, and I went to work. We had to buy all of the pictures, it cost £9 in total cos one picture is £3 :) My mum bought them for me :D

I wish we could have another scan, I miss seeing my little princess ha ha! But we only get two unless there's problems, and everything is fine with us. So yeah. That's how my two scans went :)

Cravings?

I haven't really had any majour cravings to be honest.
Haagen-Dazs, potato salad, plain dairy milk chocolate, anything nutty and creamy - e.g. kinder buenos or happy hippos, and chicken. But I liked chicken a lot anyway ha ha.

That's it really.

OH! Except my main, massive, craving is cleaning stuff! I crave the smell of cif, flash, any type of cleaning stuff! In fact, my favourite time of day is when I have to clean! I just love sniffing the cleaner, ha ha! That's really my only proper craving.

Thirty weeks and four days.

My beautiful baby girl,

It's getting closer and closer to your due date now, and I can't wait. I never grow tired of feeling you wriggle inside me, and the stronger the kicks are the more I love them. You give me terrible heartburn which keeps me up in the nights, I struggle to get comfortable in any position - whether it's lying, sitting, or standing, and you make me constantly hungry for food which we don't have in the house. This is only the beginning of what's to come, things will be a lot harder when you get here. But that's okay. Because you'll be worth all the hassle. You already are :). I can't wait to see you, and I can't wait to see what or who you look like. All I know is that you'll be the most beautiful baby girl in this world, and I'm so grateful to be your mother. I never knew how rewarding growing a life inside of me could be. You're a miracle little Lilia, and I love you very much. My belly is continuing to grow, I feel like I could burst!

I love you,

Mummy x

A bath? For me?

Since today is my day off work, I decided to get up early and clean the house so the rest of the day could be spent relaxing.
After the housework was done, I decided to run myself a nice, hot, bubble bath. James was in work so no one would be around to spoil it for me, I was even going to light some candles..

Things never work out the way I plan.

I ran my bath and took a photo to add to my blog after I finished. I got a cold glass strawberry water, put it on a set of small drawers I moved next to the bath to use as a table, and got in. Just as I was about to lie down, the shower started dripping ice cold water onto my back. I jumped out and looked at the shower - James hadn't knocked it off properly this morning, he's the only one who likes cold showers. I breathed calmly and turned the shower off, getting back in. Then I got bubbles in my eye. I reached around frantically for my towel.. I'd forgotten to put one out. So I got out the bath and trudged to the airing cupboard to get a towel and wipe my eye. On the way there I knocked my shin and a bruise instantly came up. As you can imagine, my vocabularly was not the sweetest by this point.
Just as I was about to get back in.. The door went. I swore under my breathe, wrapped my dressing gown around me, put my hair into a bobble (it was still completely dry!!) and answered.. It was James. He forgot his lunch (which by the way he asked me to make at 1am the night before! Claims he can't cook pasta, whatever!) so he decided  to come home in his lunch break and eat with me. I told him I wasn't hungry and that there was a bath waiting upstairs. Obviously I meant for myself, but James being a typical boy only thought about himself and assumed it was for him! He thanked me and told me I didn't have to. I told him I didn't, but by then he'd already jumped in.
I breathed calmly and waited for James to get out. I thought I'd have one after him instead, once he was back at work. He went back to work and didn't say bye or thanks for the bath or anything. I went upstairs to run myself a fresh bath... The bath was BLACK. He'd made it completely stinking. He'd left the dirty water in, drunk my flavoured water, and gone back to work! I was so angry. I couldn't be bothered to clean so I thought I'd go cheer myself up with some chocolate and a bit of TV for an hour.. Got into the kitchen and James had dropped his pasta all over the floor and not bothered telling me! It was tuna & mayo so the kitchen currently stinks of fish and I've tried everything to get rid of the smell!

So my day hasn't exactly been a great one. I was just about to go up and clean the bath, but my friend called and wants to go to town so I'm going out instead. If I'm not back by the time James is home, then tough! He can make his own food. As you can imagine he's not my most favourite person in the world right now!

What would have been my bubble bath!

Proof?

What is proof? I mean, all I've been asked to give is a photo of my bump with my blogspot/Stardoll name. Don't get me wrong, I'll happily provide that 'proof' for people, but really what proof is that? I mean honestly anyone can provide a photo with a bump and a sign. People can stuff shirts, edit signs, etc, and pass that off as their own proof.. For all we know, everyone who claims to be pregnant or a mother could be lying. I'm not going all 'fake buster' on you guys, or accusing anyone, I'm just saying that the "proof" I've been asked to provide is a bit pathetic. But whatever, I'm happy to provide it.
If you haven't noticed, I don't show my face in photos and I try not to include too much of my house, etc, in the backgrounds of photos either. This is because I had to agree not to in order to have the blog. My mum is very safety conscious and even though my photos are tagged, she still doesn't want me to put certain information out there - the main ones being my last name, my appearance, and where I live, etc. But yeah, anyway.. Here's my proof..

Proof One - Bump & Blogspot

Proof Two - Skin Bump & Stardoll

An update I realise I've forgotten..

So looking through my blog out of pure boredom I realise I haven't told you the biggest news my life has had since I got pregnant.. I've moved into James' bungalow, ready to raise our little princess as a proper family now :)
The bungalow has a kitchen with a dining area, a living room, 2 bedrooms - one for us and one for Lilia, and a bathroom. It's quite small but it's perfect for out first little place on our own :D
Mid-May I'll be finishing work and I'll be a stay-at-home mom with Lilia :) I really enjoy my job at Topshop, but I'd much rather watch my daughter grow up :D

COT bedding.

This is the bedding that we have bought for Lilia's cot. Obviously she's in her crib first, but we're just using second hand jungle bedding because we couldn't find any crib bedding we really liked and didn't want to spend so much money on a set anyway. So I won't be posting a picture of her crib bedding. I might upload a photo of her moses basket though, it's gorgeous! It's like wicker wood and the cotton material is white and lacey. It's beautiful! So yeah, this is the bedding :) Sorry for deleting the posts with these photos in before, but I re-uploaded them so it's all good :D



Cupcakes for my cupcake!

James and I were bored at my house, so we decided to bake some cakes! They're so yummy! The brown ones are vanilla sponge with chocolate fudge icing and smarties on top, and the white ones are vanilla sponge with vanilla icing and smarties :D They're scrummylicious! This picture was taken literally five minutes after we finished decorating them.. Four gone! James denies taking them all, but I only had one and my parents had none until I took my picture, so it was obviously him;)! Ha. Greedy man!

Twenty nine weeks & five days;

My beautiful baby girl,

I can't believe I'm nearly thirty weeks. Just ten more weeks until I finally get to meet you! I'm dying to know what you look like, excited to see what features you'll have of mine and what features you'll have of daddy's. Daddy's excited too, baby. All he talks about is you. I'm growing by the day now, but still no stretch marks! Your movements are becoming so much more frequent. I love feeling you wriggle inside me, even if you are a bugger and keep going up into my ribs! Daddy loves it too, he wakes me up to tell me in the night if you're kicking. Bless him, he doesn't realise I can feel it too! Ha ha. Granny still hasn't felt you kick yet! You're almost as stubborn as me, refusing to kick when she talks to you! I'm getting more excited each day now, little one. I hope you come early, I don't think I can wait the full ten weeks to see you! Watching my belly grow and feeling you inside me is amazing. It's hard to believe that I'm carrying a life inside me, your life. We've finally thought up your whole name - Lilia Jade. I'm sure dad doesn't like Lilia, but tough. Ha!

I love you,

Mama ♥

Okay!

My blog's layout and design has been changed. I'm not sure if it's going to stay the way it is now, but it's something!
Anyway, I've decided to change how I post I'm going to start writing letters to my little Lilia instead of writing blogs addressed to you all. So yeah. First letter coming soon:)

P.S. Sorry I've deleted all my previous posts, I just wanted a fresh start on my blog. And sorry that all the previous photos have been deleted. I'll try and re-add some later, maybe.