My confession.

Having a child is definitely very very very difficult. Last night was the worst night yet - Lilia hadn't slept all day yesterday, so of course I hadn't had a chance to nap either, and she wouldn't settle in the night. She just would not go to sleep and I was so tired from not having a nap in the day. I was grring and cursing and I very nearly broke into tears. I was so tempted to just fob Lilia off to my mother so I could get some sleep. But then I looked at her, and I was calm again. I realised that yes, it was hard, but it was worth it. I didn't care if I would have no sleep at all, because my energy would be spent looking after my daughter and bonding with her, etc..
It is extremely difficult and I wouldn't suggest having a child as young as me to anyone, but it is definitely worth it and it's a blessing. Becoming a mother is the best thing that has happened to me ever, and though times are tough, I wouldn't change it.

Anyway.. My confession (along with the one about last night!) is that I didn't want to have kids until I was a lot older, and even then I wasn't sure if I would want any. I was a career minded girl, and children would get in the way. But now my little princess is here... I want another! She's not even 3 weeks old yet, and I really can't wait until I get pregnant again! It probably won't be for a while yet, and I don't think James wants another one for a looong time, but I just can't wait! I really really want more children. Never thought I'd say that, but I do. I can't wait.
My friend gave birth today, and I was jealous. Ha ha!