40 weeks - I have hit my due date!

So today is my due date. I have reached it - something I didn't do with Lilia. It has brought me a mixture of feelings to be honest.. I am happy that I hit my due date as I hadn't done that before. We all thought that this little man was going to be early, but I had so much to do it has been kind of a relief that he didn't want to come yet. I am nervous, I don't want to go too far over my due date as I am not really wanting to have a sweep and I definitely do NOT want to be induced - I have heard some good stories of sweeps but whenever someone has been induced all I have heard is horror stories, apparently labour is worse when induced.. I am excited as I know the time is coming where I get to finally meet my beautiful baby. I think that it'll be twice as sweet meeting him now since he is making us wait a little longer than expected. I am also wondering if people were wrong about my due date. As I said when I first explained that I was pregnant - the first time we had unprotected sex led to the due date of the 28th. I was so confused when they gave me a due date earlier than that, and then even earlier again. Maybe they were just a little off and I was closer to my due date than them.. Who knows. I have been counting down the last weeks of my pregnancy, as I have been getting further along I have been getting more and more annoyed that he is not here yet. But I guess I should be grateful. I had all the time I needed to prepare for his arrival, plenty of time to appreciate Lilia as an only child, and enough time to prepare myself for this massive change that is happening.

As I have hit my due date I have started getting a little nervous. With every twinge I used to get excited and think "is this it?!" But it never was. So I decided I wouldn't get too excited anymore, and I would know when it was show time so there is no need for me to get excited over little tummy rumblings or even gas - which I have done so many times with this pregnancy, ha ha! I thought this would be hard for me, but it has actually been pretty easy.. Because instead I am getting nervous. I am wondering how I am going to cope, wondering how different this labour is going to be to Lilia's because I was SO lucky with Lilia's. I need to calm myself down because I know that when it comes down to it, staying calm is the best possible thing to do. I am dying to see my little man, don't get me wrong.. But every time I think something might happen (I am struggling to stop myself from thinking it with every little stir my body does!) I start getting nervous and thinking 'what do I do now!?' It's really frustrating, ha ha. I am training myself to ignore my head and listen to my body though - it is working so far! I haven't thought I was going into labour once today, yay! Ha ha ha.

Anyways; my symptoms are pretty much the same as always. My heartburn kind of went - or rather I didn't notice it - for a while but now it is back with full force. A few nights ago it was waking me up every hour or so because it was so bad. And I am supposed to be trying to avoid milk as much as possible as it prevents absorption. It is really hard to do so with heart burn from hell! New symptoms of this week though, I have been having period pains. I thought it was a sign that I was going to go into labour soon but nothing came of it. Shame. My stomach moves in and out so much more than it has before - sometimes he will sink right in and make my belly look soo small. The other day he actually sank in soo much my belly was completely soft and it felt like I had just had him and it was just baby weight! When I sit down sometimes my bump almost completely disappears. Since yesterday my legs have been aching so much. Especially down the insides of them. Now, me being me, I took this as a sign too. My lady area is feeling heavier so I put two and two together and got six. I thought I was going to go into labour either yesterday or today. I didn't. My legs still ache a little but it was probably from all the walking I done yesterday. My lady bits feeling heavy though.. I think this is just because he is engaged? That is what I was told to look out for before he was engaged anyway. Though I have had a horrible feeling up until last night that he had disengaged! I am feeling okay about it now though, I think he is okay - why else would I feel all heavy and the pressure on my bits, right?! :D