Saturday, 18 August 2012

Okay..? Confused!

So today James came down to help with sorting the house out and to spend time with Lilia. We got a lot done, and I am so pleased. We managed to sort my entire bedroom out, we just have a few clothes to go away in the wardrobe and then it's done completely! And move the moses basket in from my mums.. We moved Lilia into her bedroom and all we have left to do in there is empty a few bags which we haven't unpacked yet. I also got curtains up in my living room and a light shade (one more light shade to go up, but it's broken atm, don't ask!) and I had new sofas delivered and the old ones are currently in my garden awaiting collection on Thursday.
Anyway, that's not why I'm confused, obviously. I'm confused because once everyone had left (my parents were here helping us out), James ignored me for a little while. I offered him food, etc, but he wouldn't accept a proper meal - just snacks. Every time I'd try and make a conversation with him he'd just give short answers. He was more bothered with playing with Lilia. After Lilia went to bed, he stayed. I'd catch him looking at me when Lilia was awake, and vice versa. But as soon as she was in bed he started throwing a cushion at me from the other sofa. It turned into a massive play fight where he got up and came over. He started tickling me, and then held me tight. I teared up a bit, because I never feel as right as I do when I'm in his arms. I could hear his voice going wobbly too. He told me he's missed me. We had cuddles on the sofa and we kissed. I asked him what was happening between us. He said "well, we've both moved on and met new people.." I nearly burst into tears, I thought he was telling me he'd met someone new already. I mean his phone had been going off all night so I was already getting a bit suspicious.. But when I asked what he meant, he said "well, we can start a new relationship. A new us." I couldn't help but smile. I asked him to stay over the night, but he said no. He said we have things to sort out first before we can really move back in together and be in a full on relationship. Which I agree with.
But I am SOOO confused. I mean he seemed soo uninterested in getting back together, I don't know what happened. If I knew we were going to be working things out I wouldn't have even brought our break up into my blog at all.. Ah well.

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